What Are These Things...?

Almost all of me is gone
no way of getting
out of this hell hole that i call life. i'm done trying to please everyone. I am broken
ruined and destroyed forever. The pain will never go away.. The scars are here for
eternity. The looks i get... the comments i hear... the e
xtra amount of pain thrown at me day and night.
i can't handle it much longer... one day... it may kill me... or... maybe i'm
already gone. ♥

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder? Not
unless you think of me. I
lack self confidence, love, and most
importantly, beauty.
my face is pale. my hair is messy. i throw up ever week just so
i can feel... beautiful. Have you had enough? Ha ha... no. Nothing will ever
change. Once you're in, it's always and forever. No turning back.... no getting out.

Doesn't anyone understand? You'd
expect at least one
person to get you. Maybe one person would understand the
reality of life. The pain is
everlasting. No one gets that...
some people think they know what it's like... but they don't. not until you've lived through the
sharp pains that
i feel each and every day. not
one day passes where i don't feel as if i shouldn't be here...
no one could understand such pain... ever.

Another day of worries and hurt
nothing could feel as bad as the e
xtremity of thoughts that
i carry with me
every single day of my life. it's almost all
too much... It's indescribable... but not in a good way...
you learn that you can never be better once you're sick... once you're like this. you're stuck. forever