Reasons for Which I Am a Bad Friend

sometimes i wonder
what people see in
me that makes them
want to be my
friend

because i see
nothing
no good qualities
but plenty of bad
ones

i am inconsistent
and hateful and i
can’t ever say sorry

i am never willing
to talk about how
i feel can never ask
personal questions like
are you okay

never want to talk
never want to be around you
always feel lonely but
never say when i do
never say if i need you
never there when you need me

can’t deal with pity or
sympathy – whatever you
dress it up as
don’t feel pity or
sympathy

half the time i hate
you and the other half
i want you around

and in the end i don’t
understand why people like me
because i don’t
like me