Spencer

While I was waiting for you to come home
I realized that you weren't going to return
You said it would only be a few days
at most
Now it's been a year
And I'm more free than ever.
In the words of Lana Del Rey
"It takes everything you've ever wanted, and losing it it to know what true freedom is."
Only a few weeks had past when I first noticed
How calm the water seemed.
I realized how much pain you had put me through.
But I also realized that I put myself through that pain as well.
I'm not going to beg for you.
I'm not going to cry for you.
I'm not going to do anything
because I've already done all that.
I've already cried my heart out
I've already run myself to the ground
Hell,
I went out and bought a BMW
I've been driving and going crazy.
But that's okay
Because I learned something about myself.
I have a gypsy soul
I belong to no one
I belong to the world
I know now that there is nothing that the world can throw at me that I can't handle.
I know that I will always be okay.
I have you to thank.
I have you to hate.
But I don't hate you.
In fact
I forgive you
And I wish you the best.

I'm free
I always will be.

"Live fast
Die young
Be wild
And have fun
I believe in the country America used to be.
I believe in the person I want to become.
I believe in the freedom of the open road.
And my motto is the same as ever:
'I believe in the kindness of strangers.
And when I'm at war with myself I ride,
I just ride.'
Who are you?
Are you in touch with all of your darkest fantasies?
Have you created a life for yourself where you can experience them?
I have.
I am fucking crazy.
But I am free."