Steps
Steps lead up to a life once known
as the peak of perfection.
But I walk down, afraid of being alone,
trying to find the way up, to be rid of my obsession.
I won't let myself hit the bottom, I'll die before that
although I would enjoy it, a hearty dose of pain.
No matter how bad the odds are stacked
there has to be a step that leads me into rain.
The first step started at the top,
it was beautiful, and I was happy.
The steps dissolved, and I fell like a rock.
The only one who loved me, hated me.
I fell a few stories and got hurt pretty bad
but the pain felt good, I deserved every bit.
I came to a landing, and as I looked up I was sad
I could see where I had been...where I was wasn't it.
Finally a step that was willing to hold
I gave it a try, but my fucking cold
blooded instincts kicked in.
I jumped.
I'm free falling again, and I feel so free
I'm bound only by the laws of gravity.
The end is coming fast, but only if I look
so I close my eyes and I can suddenly see.
Some call it hell, I call it a tropical vacation
nothing like the real hell, I'm not here for sins.
It's a safe place, my place, secluded cloud of pain
it's the one happy place where feelings can't get in.
Time is a convenience and an eventual savior
but I pray to God that He can save her.
I'm sorry for breaking all the hearts...
you see, mine's got no one to live for.
Holding on is overrated, I prefer the mental plunge.
Feel the pain, if you cry you're done.
The toughest of us are those who care
because we're the ones defenseless while the world has guns.
as the peak of perfection.
But I walk down, afraid of being alone,
trying to find the way up, to be rid of my obsession.
I won't let myself hit the bottom, I'll die before that
although I would enjoy it, a hearty dose of pain.
No matter how bad the odds are stacked
there has to be a step that leads me into rain.
The first step started at the top,
it was beautiful, and I was happy.
The steps dissolved, and I fell like a rock.
The only one who loved me, hated me.
I fell a few stories and got hurt pretty bad
but the pain felt good, I deserved every bit.
I came to a landing, and as I looked up I was sad
I could see where I had been...where I was wasn't it.
Finally a step that was willing to hold
I gave it a try, but my fucking cold
blooded instincts kicked in.
I jumped.
I'm free falling again, and I feel so free
I'm bound only by the laws of gravity.
The end is coming fast, but only if I look
so I close my eyes and I can suddenly see.
Some call it hell, I call it a tropical vacation
nothing like the real hell, I'm not here for sins.
It's a safe place, my place, secluded cloud of pain
it's the one happy place where feelings can't get in.
Time is a convenience and an eventual savior
but I pray to God that He can save her.
I'm sorry for breaking all the hearts...
you see, mine's got no one to live for.
Holding on is overrated, I prefer the mental plunge.
Feel the pain, if you cry you're done.
The toughest of us are those who care
because we're the ones defenseless while the world has guns.