"Nights Like This"

It's on nights like this I miss you,
This hollow emptiness just sinks in.
All the flashes from our past
Make it impossible for me to look at him.
A betrayal I can only admit alone
Though I dare not whisper it aloud.
Not a single tear nor memory left
Could do anything other than just spread doubt.
I cannot let it go just yet--
I wound myself a little more each day,
But on nights like this, the guilt grows heavy
Because I know I could have stayed away.
I'm tired of this game we played;
It echoes inside my head without reprieve.
A constant reminder of the choices we made
So I can never lie next to him with ease.
It hurts to think I broke you so,
But the pain you caused lingers much longer,
And, on nights like this, when I cannot sleep,
I'm left fighting back what keeps growing stronger.