Hollowed out and Aching

i prefer the feeling
of my stomach aching
emptily
than the bloated feeling
i get when i’ve eaten
a lot (not that that’s
indicative of anything - it
doesn’t take much for me
to feel full)

i prefer my stomach to
feel hollowed out
instead of feeling as though
it’s bursting at the
seams

it’s an addictive sensation
like there’s a vacuum
where my stomach should
be and it’s sucking in
all my surrounding organs

it should hurt but it
doesn’t and it’s an
addictive emptiness

and now i’ve started
i don't think i can
stop