So You Wouldn't Break

Maybe I left you alone for too long,
I should have known I wasn't so strong.
Was there something I could do?
I wish I could have helped you too.

Sometimes I feel the past is binding me in chains,
and other times the reality my heart pains.
Why wasn't I able to move?
My love for you again I couldn't prove.

Maybe I wouldn't have trusted me either,
I think I'm rambling thanks to the fever.
Was there soemthing I could have changed?
Break my heart in pieces so you wouldn't break.

I wish I've been where you've been,
it's your favorite sins that do you in.
Why did you have to be drugged?
The drugs were what pulled us apart.

I should have used my suffering to understand your pain,
either way there wa snothing for me to gain.
Was there soemthign in me that you could trust?
Nothing other than my never-ending love and lust.

Maybe if I had that spark that would have kept you going,
you would have stopped finding love annoying.
Why couldn't I find a way?
I wanted (so much) to keep your heart at bay.

You were all I needed and I accepted who you were,
but life with us wasn't fair.
Did you live long enough?
I hope that happily you can now laugh.