Mason

I made a mistake
All those years ago
I always thought that you would wait.
I took you for granted
And now I pay the price
I'm lost and alone
Without a vice
I never meant to hurt you
As I still do today
I never meant to forsake you
And push you away.
I'm sorry I couldn't be better
As your new girlfriend is
I hope she wears your sweater
As I did back then.
I'm so very sorry I let you down
I couldn't have been more wrong
I'm sorry I left you there to drown.
I know nothing can make this better,
nothing I could ever say.
I hope you can brave this weather
And be able to walk away.
I'm sorry I couldn't be there.
I'm sorry I couldn't bare.
I just wasn't that strong
And now I know I had been wrong.
I hope you can forgive me.
Maybe one day
If not today.

You once told me, "If it's meant to be, it will be."
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Way too much has happened this past week... I have made too many mistakes that can't be fixed and now I'm paying the price. I'm still trying to be okay. I'm still learning.