Letter to a Girl

I am lonely and
I am desperate
You are oxygen to a suffocating girl
(I think of you all the time
Lips painted red
Curling upwards on the other side
Of a cold metal computer screen)

You are lonely too, I think
I want to reach for you
Let my words be fingers
That caress and
Comfort you, physical promises
(But I am afraid
I am young and clumsy, you are a goddess)

I see your light in the letters
Of every message
The white is blinding beneath
The black of physical constraints
Beneath your fingers, thousands of miles away
(How can I fall in love with a girl
Whom I have never met? How do I tell you?)

We are so far apart
But I have never felt closer
You are a phantom, a dream
A girl who I love behind a screen
And I know
You could never love me
(I will pretend, I will break my own heart)