7:45

your bones your flesh
these muscles
these connecting parts
are a prison
you are constantly doing this
locking yourself up in the top of the
tower
because you don't deserve to live
amongst
your friends
your happy beautiful wonderful friends
and you are this void, this black hole
this fucking ache
you are so ugly in comparison
to these people
full of light
and you are constantly so fucking
hollow
broken-open and empty and shattered
the anchor that doesn't work right
a girl putting stones in her pockets
before she goes swimming
to weigh herself down
(i want to love myself deeply

truly

for once)