To Blinkey.

little droplets of crimson
spilling and dripping
from the sides of “cat scratches”
revealing more than just what’s under my skin.

when I look at them, I think of you.
and your dorky smile that’s spray-painted
onto the inside of my skull.
those words you said
the pain I felt
dug deep into my skin.
you hurt me,
so i hurt myself.

you want to be a rock star
well honey,
your dreams aren’t very far.
the echo of the kids chanting your name
over and over and over again
can be heard on the horizon

those words you said
the pain I felt
is still dug deep into my skin.
its sunken deeper than just that.
deeper and deeper it goes
deeper and deeper I fall
replayed day after day
after day

“i love you”
it must be so easy for you to lie
like second nature
similar to your immaculate skill
to break people
and not feel a thing.

you’re just like who you said
you never wanted to be.
your finger was held tight
on the trigger
while you were spitting sins through your teeth.
shot me right through the chest
with no hesitation.
I didn’t need that heart, anyway.

intoxicated by love
i was blinded into a false sense of security
“he’s not like the other guys”
i would lie to myself every night
you’re not like the other guys
you value love more than most
just not mine.

love just isn’t your “scene”
stick to the strumming, baby.
you’re gonna go far.
Maybe one day
you’ll actually make a girl
feel safe and loved
and not cause her to hate herself
and not leave her with scars
and not making her feel like she wants to die
every

single

fucking

day