Drifter

it’s only been a few
months and already
i can feel myself
drifting away i can
feel myself getting
swallowed whole by a
loneliness that is all
my fault

i can feel myself
second guessing everything
my friends do i can
hear myself thinking over and
over would it make a difference
if i weren’t there

i can feel myself starting to
stop fighting such thoughts i
can feel myself giving in to
them and i can see no one
notices anything different

and that just makes me
drift faster