Truthless

trust is a funny
thing because we throw
it around so casually
we say so carelessly
don’t you trust me
with a smile on our
faces and our fingers
crossed behind our backs

but when it comes down to it
i can’t think of anyone
that i would trust
i don’t know of anyone
who i haven’t watched
walk away (and i’ve
watched so many people leave)
and i watch their
backs receding and i
want to be able to
trust that they’ll stay
but it always
feels like i’m a burden
always feels like i need
them more than they
need me

and i don’t know
how to shake that
feeling don’t know if i
can

because i’ve been lying
for so long
that i think i’ve
forgotten how to
tell the truth