A Girl or a ***?

My dear sweet boy.
I have always been the innocent little girl, never done a thing wrong.
You came along and just had to complicate.
I let you sneak into my house and finger me on my bed,
I let you talk me into going against what my mother said.
I cry and cry but I don't know how to say shit anymore
My heart is torn.
I've never cared so much for a boy,
But I feel like your sex toy.
How could we have gone so far,
Everything has gone wrong and I sit here tonight and cry underneath the moon.
I can't break up with you,
I can't live without you.
You've made me into something I swore I'd never be.
You made me easy, after only three months.
Maybe it would be best to say goodbye,
But it would be so much easier to lie and say I'm alright.
I called to tell you the truth but it went straight to voicemail.
I'm stuck. I'm scared. Why can't you see?
I'm a girl not a whore,
You swore you'd respect me,
It's time you followed through.
If you don't I'll have to learn to live without you, because we're through.