Fatherless

For sixteen years I waited,
Wasting time on a hopeless dream,
That you would walk back through the door,
Tears flowing like a stream.

I'm twenty four years old now,
And I've never seen your face,
You've never met your granddaughter,
Who fills my life with grace.

I'm not even really angry,
You probably forgot,
About the baby still unborn,
Abandoned on the spot.

You was supposed to be my hero dad,
Taking a place within my heart,
Instead there's just an empty space,
That has torn my soul apart.

How does it feel to be a sperm donor dad,
Instead of a father there to share,
A shadow of a man I've never known,
Who didn't have the decency to care.

I don't want your money, or a place in your life,
But a little recognition would do,
I am your biological daughter after all,
I deserve an explanation or two.

Do you ever think of me?
Do you wonder what I became?
Do you think whether I am a girl or a boy?
Or whether we are different or the same?

Do I have other brothers or sisters?
Do I get a thought on Christmas day?
Do you regret not knowing me?
Do you wish your choice had been to stay?

So many questions that I have,
But you're not here to give me truth,
Because you left with no backward glance,
And of that I have proof.

I hope you know you're missing out,
On a daughter and a friend,
Someone else to love you unconditionally,
Until the very end.

I'm supposed to say I love you,
And that I miss you everyday,
But it has been to long to mean that now,
So that's all I have to say.