Pretend

I have to pretend,
Pretend to be happy for you.
When you speak her name,
When you talk about her.
I smile and say I am happy,
But I know it hurts deep inside.
Because there's still feelings I have not,
Forgotten.
It scares me to know I will always feel this way,
This way you'll never know again.
Its not right for me to want you,
When you've moved on.
After so long, and I'm sorry.
I will try not to be selfish about her,
I know you're happier.
Even though i'll forever just be a friend,
and nothing more to come of that.
It hurts having to pretend,
To have a fake smile painted on my face.
To know that she'll forever be yours,
And I'll be stuck on the sidelines.
Knowing I will have to pretend.