Constant Recovery

I guess maybe it’s true, what they say

that time will heal all wounds.

But I also suppose that in order to heal

I’d have to stop bleeding, and maybe start eating.

And maybe it’s true, what they say

that it does get better.

But I also think that to see it improve

I’d have to be alive.

It’s certainly true, what they say

that I’m disgusting, wrong, that I don’t deserve to exist.

But I also know that maybe I can’t kill myself because

I’m a dead girl walking.