Have You Ever

Have you ever wonders the streets at night?

When the darkness is so deep its like trying to look through milk

Have you run your fingers along the leaves of low hanging branches?

When their covered with a think blanket of due

I have

Walked hours in the silky night
When clouds covered the sky
Let the moon guyed me
Trusting my soul to were my feet go

Have you ever craved for someone you could never have?

When they are so close you can feel their breath on your skin

Have you ever wanted to lean in close; taste their lips agents yours?

Warm and soft tasting of them

I have

Lured them in with whispers in their ear
Gentle squeezes as I run my hands over their shoulders
Tasting them as I gently push my lips to theirs

Have you ever felt alone?

Like you are the only person on the planet

Have you ever wonders why they just pick at you?

Your too fat to thin not tall enough not short enough your clothes are wrong your shoes
to small

I have

Felt so alone that I took flesh from bone
Let blood run deep down drain wholes
Let the picking eat away the flesh that was left

Have you ever beat your fist into a wall?

So that the tears welling behind your eyes would not fall

Have you ever hugged your dog at night?

When their was no one around who wanted to comfort you

I have

Beat my fist into a wall till the skin was raw
Night after night when nothing but plaster could cushion my rage
Hugged by dog so tight I was positive I would suffocate him

Have you ever woken feeling new?

All that has happens just made you stronger

Have you ever realized the value of your own gold?

Look at your assets what your brain knows

I have

Iv woken feeling new when the truing point came
I stopped lessening to what others said
I stopped the hate from feeding on me
For I am not going to be what they want
For I am
Me
I am strong
Smart
Beautiful
For I am me and that all i can be