I Want to be a Boy

I want to be a pretty boy
And do the pretty boy things
And have a pretty boyfriend
But sometimes I like being a girl.
But then I realize that whatever I like
About being a girl
Would be better if I were a boy
And then I cry a little.
And then I realize that I'd miss the straight boys
And I'd miss my parents
And I'd miss people not looking down on me
And I wouldn't be able to be a skinny cute boy
Because I just don't have the drive
And I'm just a teenager
And I'll probably regret it when I'm older.
So fuck it.
I'll just be a chubby girl with short hair
And wrap up my boobs when no one's home
And stuff my pants
And keep all that shit in my head