Drowning Lessons

Through the tears of my pain,
This unbearable rain,
I'll find some way to smile again

And I'll tell my friends
That it's all alright.
Still, I'll cry myself to sleep tonight.

Why do I have to feel this way?
I've heard that "God" is supposed to help me
But where the fuck is he today?

And I know it's not right
But I'm too tired to fight
So I'll lie here and wait till' this day turns to night.

I'll give myself up to the darkness
I know
That will soon drown whats left of my heart and my soul

But the dark can be good when you've had all you can take.
You can't see what haunts you.
It's true, never fake.

I'm helplessly lost in this ocean of tears and the current keeps pulling me under.
I can't take it much longer. The pain just gets stronger.
One more wave could cause me to break.