Drowning

I can barely say your name
I just want to stay sane.
I can't hold on.
I'm just done.
I'm drowning in this sea
Of depression.
I'm done with all this tension
I need a permanent solution
There is too much motion
For me to deal with.
Suicide had always been a myth
until I tried
Tired, several times. I've always cried.
So tell me,
Do you see the way I see?