escape

Finding myself at the same road I was at years ago, not wanting to feel alone, not wanting to give up this safe place I've grown accustomed to. Looking at the dark hole in my emotions, a glitch in my system. Her eyes that I find myself staring into, wanting her to never leave me alone with these cold harsh people, who will do anything to break me. Maybe I'm not trying to save her, maybe I just want her to save me.
If I could disappear I would, hide in the shadows that guard me but also haunt me with a critical stare. The woman who has gave me life I have never thanked, who has held me in her arms to calm the pain that swallows me in it's prickly grasp. Anything to keep from giving into a dead end fate, better choices and the sober end of this conversation. They are ghosts with no end, no shame, and no accomplishments. Could you rescue me from this cruel act of god, his vengeance for my mistakes in the past.