Emotional Trainwreck

I'm so mean to me
Sometimes my head likes to fuck with my heart
I have monsters in me
They Grab onto my feelings and rip them apart

Darling I'm sorry I don't know how to love
My dear I'm so sorry I pushed you away
Please don't leave me darling
How ironic I didn't stay

I fear my unstable condition
My broken doctor says I'm afraid
Look at my judgement shattered to pieces
Doctor I need a bandaid