Sweet Lie

Should I remember
Those days of December
When I was wandering the city all alone
If I could turn back the time
I would do the same mistakes?
Would I end up with the same regrets?

But now, now it's so different
I hurt and I get hurt
I love but I am never loved
I try to take one step at time
But I am clumsy and I stumble every time

I should know by now
That real love doesn't fall from the sky
Not for me, not for anyone
Every scar I got
Should have made me stronger, a fighter
But my heart still flutters at every sweet lie

I hate how fast I fall in love
And how fast they fall out of love
I should have learned my lesson by now

My head spins around,
The drugs lost their effect
I see reality as it is and I want to go back to dream land
I am hopeless, I am helpless
Who did I become?
I was happy, I was innocent,
When did I change so much?