Bleeding Out the Truth

In my eyes I see the monster I have become
In my thoughts I think of all my wrong
In myself I see the darkness surround my soul
In my life I see everyone slowly begin to leave

I let this pattern happen again
I brought this to you my only friend
It is a knife to hide all your pain
One quick slice and all will be okay again
One quick slash and you will forget again

I am dying now
Me and my regret
I can feel the ghosts of my life surround me
They scream "You did this to me, you ruined my life. Your torturing me."
I clasp onto my ears but their screams still penetrate my hands
I run, the only thing I know how to do, and still there is no escape
At last, I see chance to leave it all behind.

I grip my knife, with my strong hand
I place it to my neck
I close my eyes as I then begin to move my strong hand
The pain is so intense, but I feel a bit of weight lifted off
The hate, sorrow, regret, distrust, and dishonor is gone
As I begin to black out, because of lack of breath
I wish for one last chance
One chance to end all the pain I had given to my friends
And, as if an echo, I heard a single word

A word that I know would be the reason why I will be dead, with my regret
The word was simply "No"
And so I lie here, in my own pool of blood
The distorted faces of my hate, sorrow, dishonor, and distrust wave away
With faces of pure glee...
Because, in the end, they still won....