I Would Do It All Again

I wish I could tell you why I hide in my room.
I wish I could explain to you without you thinking I'm a freak.
We were best friends, but you never understood why.
Why I couldn't get over it when it raced
Through my head every second of every day.
I wish you could know how much I miss you every time I hear your name.
I wish I had told you how much I loved you before I left
I didn't want this to happen when you felt like nobody cared.
I'm sorry I didn't say anything when I found out he hurt you.
And I know I should have confronted him, but how could
I hate and resent my own brother?
I was too weak to understand that when you were with another man
They made you feel like you were worth something more
That because they were with you and you with them they loved you.
But I loved you first. I held you when you cried and even though
We were just kids I still feel the need to go to your house and sit
I still want to lay on your bed listening to you sing your favorite songs
Or at the computer writing love stories or listening to music
I wish I could tell you how many times I thought about you.
Now I wish you could know and realize
That I would do it all again if I had to.