Music Was There When No One Else Was

I can't be alone with just my thoughts
They hurt too much
My thoughts lead me through nothing but pain
They take me to the shaded part of my past
When I couldn't be alone
Music stayed beside me
When I couldn't take the world
Music was there to hide me
I don't know how to be alone
Not anymore
Music is there to wake me up
Music gets me through the day
Music lulls me to sleep
I can't ever be without someone there
Let it be friends or let it be music
I need something to distract me
It can't be family though
They don't distract
They are the cause of my musical dependence
When music is not there
And I am alone
I see their faces
Faces full of anger
Of disappointment
Of sadness
Of things I don't wish to see
I hear their words reverberating in my head
Where music would silence them
I realize that music can't replace people
Not really
It can't really hold me
It doesn't really understand me
It isn't there just for me
It doesn't hear me
It doesn't respond to my pain
But even so the voices
And melodies
Have gotten me through this thing I call life
Through all the painful moments
Joyous moments
Seemingly quite moments
Me just living life's moments
Music was there
Music comforted me when I cried
Made me happy when I needed to be
Helped me release the feelings I didn't know I was holding in
Freed me when reality held on too tight
Seemed understand me when others did not
Music has become part of me
I hear it
I feel it
I make it
I live it
Because as irrational
Or illogical
As it seems
Music was there when no one else was