If I'm Going to Be Sad

If I’m going to be sad - let me do it properly
Make mascara smudges beneath my eyes
I'll mess my hair and dress in black
After all - our emotions are lies.

If I'm going to cry, let me do it in the dark
and let my tears fall freely down my check
I won't wipe them away and will let my nose run
While curled up in a ball under my sheets.

If I'm going to be broken, let me hang up the phone
Let me shout at anyone near me
I'll smash all the plates and throw spoons at your face
Tomorrow will be better - you'll see.

If I'm going to fall, then you better be watching
Well it's all your fault, after all
Maybe then you'll see what you've done to me
And then the world won't have to listen anymore.