These Colorful Pills

"you're amazing
you know that?"
her words bounce away from me
my sadness
it's all I see
these colorful pills
in my hand
suddenly
they're all I have
I take them
and so suddnely regret
the fact
that I hate myself like that
hours later
in the middle of the night
she screams
this pain
the hurt
she can't fight
closing her eyes for the last time:
her biggest delight
her soul slips away
does she not know
how much I wanted her to stay?
with a wooden box
and people who pretend to care
I sit there
her being gone
too much to bear
I loved her
like I love no other
now she's gone
forever