All I Ask For...

I hope you can see I'm only hanging on by a thread and its breaking.
I'm blindly walking around with nowhere to go.
I need some insight to my insecurities.
I don't know how to fight off the monsters that I keep locked inside, their right under the surface trying to break through.
They say I'm strong but I feel weak.
I make mistakes but I try to right my wrongs.
The things that matter to me are fading into yesterday.
I want to break down my walls, but what if I lose my piece of mind?
I'm praying to anyone that can hear me.
I'm afraid that death's is coming my way, if I don't change my ways.
My mother stares up at me; I can tell she's afraid of what I'll do.
I try not to let what they say, what they think, bring me down, but those demons know all my secrets.
I try to scream for help but no sound comes out.
I want a life of my own, where I'm free of everything.
I flinch at every shadow I see thinking they might be that evil thing coming to get me.
I'm a big girl, I keep on telling myself.
I got to find a place where I belong, even if I want to be in my parent’s arms.
I don't feel safe, but when I'm with them, but they couldn't shield me from what’s in this world.
I need to learn the art of forgiveness for my own sake.
I feel my soul slipping away.
I hold my hand out to you, I need your help, and all I have is a moment.