The Monster

I looked in her eyes and told her what i believed.
I told her what i thought emotions on the sleeve.
I loved her with all my heart but i had to leave.
Now i sit here with a razor in my hand watching as i bleed.
Now in my life theres nothing else i need.
every cut will feed.
feed the monster living inside me.
the blood that flows lets it free.
look in my eyes and you wont find me.
the monster is in control.
I dipped in the bathtub with slit wrists thinking i was immortal.
i had many cuts a 130 all in total.
laying down as my eyes roll back in my head. glowing light leading me into another portal.
what i didnt know was these cuts were fatal.
i didn't wake up. parents walked in and say that i was the one who lost the battle
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