How to Wake Up

Cold weather brings out the best in everyone. I'm convinced.

You know what is exponentially scarier than falling really fast, in to a dark hole?
The race to get out of the dark hole.
You can see it coming.
The silver lining.
The proverbial light at the end of the tunnel.
You chase it and chase it.
And chase it.
You know that the more you sweat, the faster you will get there.
but you can’t move.
You can’t fucking move.
You just stare. Stare in to your surroundings.
Mouth, practically stuck to the floor.
Stare in to people, and try to understand them.
Out of curiosity, maybe.
But probably because you want to better understand yourself.
But you can’t.
You can’t understand it.
Why are you breathing? Why are you moving? Why are you feeling?
What is the god damn purpose?
And then you feel something.
Finally something has intervened!
Something so shockingly ordinary.
Equally, rare enough to shake you in to
understanding.
OH! I GET IT NOW!!
The point is NOT to think.
The point is to feel.