I can't breathe.

Sometimes it feels like
I'm floating away
like I'm no longer tethered to the earth and I'm just flying away, screaming.
And sometimes it feels like
I'm crawling,
clawing at the dirt
trying to get traction,
but I'm not going anywhere.
I'm either going too fast
or not going at all
and I can't stand it.
Sometimes I feel like I'm not even here,
Sometimes it feels like I've been here too long.
It feels like I'm stuck in this weird purgatory of anxiety
that I can't escape
I'm running, yet stationary
My body feels too small for my soul
and sometimes I want to open myself up
so that I can breathe.