This Feeling Though

I can't explain this feeling
Nausea burning in my stomach
I know what triggered this
The monster has come back to see
To see if I'm ready to cave
To be sucked out from this world
Each time I come close
Closer, closer...
The edge looks inviting
I hope this doesn't scare you away
I really need you now
I need anybody to be honest
Sleep possesses most of my time
My dreams grant an escape
When you die,
Do you dream?
An endless dream,
Seems so great
I can't tell anyone
I have to be strong
No tears allowed to travel from my eyes
I think of the easiest way
I don't want pain though
I want to feel more of this nothing
Wait...isn't that the thing pushing,
Me to the edge:
Nothing.
I really hope you can say I'm worth something
I'm so tired of all this nothing