"So Many"

There are so many things I want to say
So many ways I want to curse your name
So many things I still want to do to you
So many punches that I never threw
There are so many reasons to hate you now
So many questions still left I want to scream out
So many excuses to just pick up the phone
So many doubts that force me to leave you alone
There are so many memories I want to erase
So many instances I want to replay
So many dreams you stole away from me
So many promises that I shouldn't still believe
There are so many things left over of you
So many mistakes I know I can never undo
So many annoyances that push me to move on
But so many more reminders to wish that you were not gone.