The Pain of Yesterday..

I tell myself that the pain of yesterday will go away, but it always finds it's way into my head. Making me wonder why I still exist, why I continue to try when no one will notice. I wish I'd never met the blade, I wish I never met the herb, I wish I never met you. You made me think that it will all go away if I took one little hit. God how I miss when I could breath an not feel the pain of yesterday, You pushed me close to life's little ledge, I see the drop, I closed my eyes an fell, I fell and the wind whipped around me, then a crashing thud, darkness came across me like a warm blanket in the middle of winter, the dark is where I'm home, the dark is where I'm safe...