Someone Special

Our faces would pass each other in the hallway
Like the reminiscence of yesterday, it has been years after
It would be heaven to go back and spend time that way
But even then, it wouldn't even matter

You always spoke of her
You didn't see me
I vowed to block my feelings

It was a complicated time
We eventually grew together in months
We eventually grew apart like a chime on a clock

I should not have let you in
I should not have shut you out
I regret it with most pain
I yearn for you to reroute

I'm afraid of missing someone who no longer exists
Are we still the same people?
I'm afraid I am no longer important.
Are we still something special?
I'm afraid you don't need me,
I'm afraid you never needed me at all.
I'm afraid of it being too late
because I let you go so easily
Or maybe you were too resistant
Whatever the reason,
you still matter to me a lot

Will you need me?
I need you.
Will you forgive me?
I miss you.
Will you come back?
I wonder.
And wonder is all I have left
In order to keep you alive
In my hurting heart.
But I'm afraid that it will be a waste.
Because you are so gone.
We are so apart.
I don't know what I should do.
Everything I'm afraid of must be true.