Night Terror

When you did what you did
I never thought it would infect my head.
You changed me from the outside, in.
Never knew I was so weak
You granted me that realization.
That at any moment I could be held down
And forced into again.
And you said it was a form of admiration.
You said it made you feel close.
You gave me no choice,
fucking me no matter how many times I said no.
You got me drunk, gave me drugs
Maybe to trick me into believing your so called love.
Fear kept me in place, anything to keep you happy.
I was your slave everyday,
I surrendered to obedience,
an attempt to stay safe.