That Everlasting feeling

That everlasting feeling of hatred for that one person. You hope they cry when there alone but you cry when they hurt inside. You hate when they laugh at a joke that's not your own. You see that one person staring at you with fear in there eyes but when you try to comfort them they push you aside. Knowing you still dream of that one person but when you are close you feel nothing. You see them laughing when your world slows down you wait till your pain drys up like you do on a sunny day but instead of your skin burning your heart fry's. That everlasting feeling.That feeling of intense hostility,you shed tears when you miss them. Hope for you both you try to cope with the pain feels like your hooked on dope.You still feel that hate even when you try to concentrate. You still shed tears while the years go by. That fate doesn't matter, with the hate or the intense rate of your heart beat. I see my self falling but I'm still calling, I still remember the first time we said we hate each other "I HATE YOU" but I thought things were fine but I guess I underestimate. I still await for another hate. My heart feels like a ticking time bomb IN PAIN as I sit In the rain. My heart filled with love but sprinkled with hate around its surface...........