Chemical Imbalance

I got a chemical imbalance, my own thoughts I can't manage.
Getting up is just a challenge, I feel swallowed by this sadness.
My brain's a mess of chaos, somedays I feel too damaged.
I'm surrounded by madness and I begin to feel the panic.
I turn to my old habits, my dark passenger, the addict.
Any drug in front of me is an opourtunity to escape,
Take anything even for a moment to not feel this pain.

I know after this rain I'll never be the same, got a chemical imbalance of the brain.

Urges and cravings effecting me everyday.
Sometimes I daydream of a gun and how it could blow it all away.
If I just took one to many pills i'd never feel this darkness I hate.
It may go away but it comes back worse everytime, losing more of my already lost mind.
Constantly walking on the line, beneath me is thin ice.
Sometimes I feel like I wasn't meant for this life.
An utter disappointment so my frustrations I can only write.

I got a chemical imbalance in this brain of mine.