Crossed the Line

Maybe I crossed the line,
When I said you were on my mind.

But I couldn't think right,
I'm sorry if I didn't make sense.

Yet I never shone in the light,
And never did I put on a pretense.

I'm sorry if I lied to you,
When I said I'm fine now.

For I'm not fine, I'm blue,
Yet I'll get through it somehow.

I wish I could take back the blog I wrote,
And the words I stupidly said.

But now I shine with every sung note.
And I'm trying to get ahead.

It wasn't looks that had me fall,
Yet fall never did I at all.

I thought I felt this spark,
Deep inside of this heart.

Yet I've never known the dark,
And I've never really had to restart.

Maybe if I could forget,
This last regret.

Then I could look at you,
With fresh eyes,
And a smile ever so new,
Never a disguise.

I wish I could make up for mess I made,
And sometimes I wish that pasts could fade.

For if I could erase that day,
I'd do it and have nothing to say.

And I would smile the pain away,
And hope that I'll never again fray.

I hope that you'll forgive me,
And know that I'm sorry.

I didn't mean to depend too much,
And I don't deserve your touch.

But I know I'm not sick,
And I'm not exactly thick,
But I still fell for this,
Dreaming of that kiss.

I dreamt of you,
But it wasn't true.

Yet I believed,
You had me relieved.

And I thought that life was better,
Living amongst better weather.

No clouds would ever tower me,
And I could be what I wanted to be.

Yet I was a fool,
And it wasn't cool.

At all,
I fall.

Remembering how,
I lied to myself,
And thought somehow,
I was in good health.

But how could I have been?
When all I've ever seen,
Is fractures of what it was before,
And now I'm burnt to the core.

I wish I could turn back time,
And come up with a new rhyme.

About how I never loved you,
Because I can't and I won't.

But for some reason I thought it to be true,
And I hate myself for what I used to want.

Yet now I know what I need,
To live this life and succeed.

And it isn't you,
Or what you do.

That will have me alive,
And have me strive.

It will be me,
And this future I see.

This darkness inside,
That will have me confide.

In myself,
In my health.

I'll grow strong,
I'll prove them wrong.

I swear,
I'll wear,
This mask,
If I must.

If you're there,
Showing care,
I'll ask,
Myself to rust.

For I can't look at you,
And remember how I crossed the line.

I can't remember blue,
Whenever I look beyond the blinds.

I'm tired,
Loose wires.

Inside my head,
As I sleep.

I'll get ahead,
Even though I weep.

I'll forget,
My regret.

And I'll learn to love myself again,
Forget this darker side of pain.

I will grow inside,
Learn not to hide.

I will gain back my wings,
I will be everything,
I ever wanted or needed,
And soon I can say I succeeded.

Yet I hope I move on,
And forget how strong,
I used to feel,
But that was never real.

I'm sorry for my act,
This is a fact.

I will change all of that,
Take off my hat.

For you,
You are true.

And all I did was lie,
All the time back then.

But I cant deny,
My every friend.

How they stand by,
And won't let me cry.

I'll hold onto them,
But I shan't depend.

I'll hold them close,
Who knows,
Where we'll go,
Put on a show.

Dance till we're done,
Show how we've won.

Let faith undo,
All this pain.

And let us never go through,
This disaster again.

I crossed the line,
But I ought to be fine.

I'm sorry I did it,
Sorry for every bit.

I wish I could turn back,
The days where I would lack,
This sudden strength,
But I'll live at great length.

Yet I may still fear heights,
And turn out all of the lights.

But love you I will not,
Because I've got,
What I wanted now,
Somehow.

I crossed the line,
But I'm not blind.

I still see,
All of me.

I'm a fighter,
Worlds are brighter.

I feel lighter,
Feel this fire.

Burning inside,
I won't hide,
No tears to cry,
I won't die.

I'll survive,
I'll always strive.

I'm still alive,
I'll live this life.

Right this time,
I will shine.

You will see me succeed,
Never again see me bleed.

I will prove to you,
How I fought through,
The darkness,
And hopelessness.

I will become,
My own home.

And you will see,
Who I'm meant to be.

But I crossed the line,
And I'm so sorry,
You'll always be fine,
Don't you worry.

I crossed the line,
I can't forget this,
But I'll still shine,
And you I shan't miss.

I'll move on,
From this dark.

I'll grow strong,
Become the spark.

You will see my fire,
Others will aspire.

And I will inspire,
Those who desire.

I promised myself,
That I'll fix my health.

I'll figure out my mind,
I'll get past this.

I won't feel so confined,
I will only feel bliss.

And trust me I'll be fine,
I wish I never crossed the line.

If I could turn back time,
I wish I never crossed the line.

I'll try again and I will shine,
I wish I never crossed the line.

You live your life and I'll live mine,
Just know that I'll never cross the line.

Again,
My friend,
No pain,
It's the end.

Trust me,
When I now say,
We are free,
In our own way.

I'm sorry I crossed the line,
But I promise you now,
I'll be just fine and I'll fine,
My faith somehow.

Don't take in my crimson wine,
I was wrong to have crossed the line.

I hope you don't mind,
That I still hope to find.

Someone with your ways,
To share my days.

But you'll go your way and I'll go mine,
And this is the last time I'll cross the line.

I should have never crossed that line...