"I Just..."

It's not that I couldn't see it before,
I just chose to close my eyes.
It's not that I couldn't hear the truth,
I was just more tempted by the lies.
It's not that part of me didn't know,
I just wanted more than what was left.
It's not that I was blinded by some dream,
I just believed the promises you should have kept.
It's not that I pushed aside the hurt,
I just craved the love that once was there.
It's not that you broke my trust completely,
I just never thought that you would dare.
It's not that I thought time would fix things,
I just wished for more when you did not.
It's not that I linger in our memories,
I just can't convince myself that I forgot.
It's not that I ran so blindly forward,
I just lost my way trying to figure what to do.
It's not that I didn't see you'd turned away,
I just didn't realize I meant nothing to you.