Invisible Pain

Invisible Pain

While everything is tucked away inside, I fake a smile;
No one knows the pain I’ve hidden for this long while.
They scratch the surface, but they’re all blind;
No one can see the scars that are left on my mind.
My heart bleeds while my mind races;
Their words are different, but all the same faces.
Judgment surrounds & hatred clouds;
Skin & bone become their shrouds.
You can’t understand & you can’t relate;
Instead of happiness, I’m filled with hate.
Bitter & angry, I can’t seem to let go;
All of my troubles & pain, you’ll never know.
Storm clouds rise against the starry sky;
as I silently wait for my sorrowful eyes to dry.
Begin another day & hope the pain subsides;
Push it away & let it die inside.
Regret & sorrow fill my soul;
Hanging on will not make me whole.
Forgetting the past is a hard concept to follow;
Suck it up & take the pill to swallow.
This couldn’t possibly go on forever;
This pain, it could end whenever.
But I can’t see the light at the end anymore;
What’s the point of family anyway? What’s it for?
If all they do is fight & betray you, then why try?
Repressed memories & stupid fights have made me cry.
If it’ll never change, then what am I expected to do?
This is only the tip of what I’ve been through.
Just end it all & let me go on without the drama;
I don’t want the pain & I don’t want the trauma.