My Betrayal

My Betrayal

Deeper into the abyss I fall, farther & faster;
All this pain & all this hate has become my master.
I try to ignore the demons within;
I just don't want this to happen again.
I'm happy that he's over it & he's all done;
But I'm, however, not. He's still holding the gun.
Bullets to drive me to my breaking point & I hope I come back;
But even then, everyone else will still talk smack.
Just leave me alone & go away;
I just regret letting him lead me astray.
Hate me all you want. I don't care;
I should've known you'd never be there.
Another lesson learned, another page turned;
You said you were going to Hell & I can't wait to see you burn.
Guilt & shame fill my head & nothing to ease the pain;
Lied to save your skin & I did the same.
Never meant to listen to things I knew were wrong;
Should've known it was a bad idea all along.
Screwed up my life in such a way you don't recognize;
All I see is fire & evil & & selfishness in your eyes.
Because of you, I broke his heart & watched him die;
Never thought it'd kill me so much to see him cry.
Trying to patch things up & not getting far;
Because of you, I left a scar.
Mutual faults, but you manipulated my mind;
Now, all I have to do is leave it all behind...

I hope I can do it...