Silent Screams

Silent Screams

Watching as my world crashes down around me;
Feeling so pathetic that I can't even take care of my baby.
Drowning my screams in tears & having no one there;
But really? No one sees enough to care.
I'm just another person invisible to the world;
But into this money hungry monstrosity I've been hurled.
Demons & monsters haunt my thoughts as I bleed out;
No one sees me even as I'm waving my arms & thrashing about.
Doesn't help with all the personal demons I constantly face;
Back to the 'old me' I can't retrace.
Nothings the same & I can't let go;
No one cares & no one will ever know.
Inside, I wanna die & rot away;
Just leave me in my grave & there I will stay.
Suicide is serious, but it's not for me;
If I was brave, it'd set me free.
I wish I could, but I can't do that;
I probably should. After all, my world is crushed flat.
Who would miss me? No one would care;
Except for the 2 that'd be there.
Thoughts provoking my soul & tearing me to shreds;
Sometimes I do think I'm better off dead.
But time will consume me until I'm old & grey;
But maybe, just maybe...someday...