The Monster Within

The Monster Within

I've become the monster I always hated when I younger;
I tried pulling away, but it dragged me under.
I'm now no better than my good for nothing mom;
Looking back to see where I went wrong,
Lies & deceit clouded my thoughts with no sympathy for another;
What happened to me? We were supposed to love each other.
I broke my promise & I broke his heart;
Because of it, it tore my world apart.
I should've done this, I should've said that;
I never knew my world could get crushed so flat.
My 'one' was never meant to endure this pain;
There's so much shame & fear that it crashes around me like rain.
Nothing will heal me. I'll take it to my grave;
Everything was ruined & nothing could be saved.
With my name tarnished & people hate me for what I've done;
From everyone's eyes I'm constantly on the run.
Take it away & just make it stop;
A mountain of problems I'm sitting atop.
He thinks I'm okay & I'm over it all;
Truth is, I just have no one left to call.
I bear my problems all on my own;
It doesn't matter. I'll always be alone.
I can't ask for help because I have no one to turn to;
No one knows the hell I have been through............