Secrets and Mutilation

I give into the temptation,
ignoring the fact it will be my damnation,
I watch it strike and it strikes deep,
with calm calculation I watch my blood seep.

Red and thin it drips and drips,
flowing freely from ragged rips.
The pain is fierce, it burns like fire,
I care not for I have filled my desire.

I clean the wounds and bind them tight,
I'll let no one see what I've done tonight.
I cover my leg and ignore the sting,
I enter my bedroom, feeling my heart racing.

I scream into my pillow, and punch the bed,
Trying to drown the satisfied voice inside my head.
I hate what I've done, yet I know this time won't be the last,
I'm falling into a routine I thought I'd left in the past.