Why?

Is it wrong that I have already let you
go? Is it wrong that the more I don't want to know you the more my heart brakes for you? The more I want to slip away the more your grip tightens and strangles me into submission. Tell me where do these damn acts of sudden need for you come from? And why are they so quickly reinforced by these painfully cruel and heartless feelings of complete and utter hatred of you. Why? God damn you tell me why, tell me why can't I just let you go and drop you into whatever is left of my conscience. Tell me why I can't just abandon you like I've done to so many others, who's ties had to be cut for my own survival. God damn it my dear friend please tell me why.