Picture Perfect

Each lie bleeds inside the dying flame
And we can never seem to turn away.
Forced to stand and never to cry
It gets worse every day.

Every time you target my soul
I die a little more, deep inside
I'm searching still for the place I belong
It's just so hard to find.

I have to hide who I really am
With a protective, fighting guard.
Do you honestly believe I want to be like this?
This life is just too hard.

And I can't tell them who this girl is
When I can hardly remember myself.
I pray each night on the brightest stars
Yet I can never find help.

I'm huddled inside a weakening shell
That offers no comfort or contrition.
Only mocking, whenever I break
When the tears blcok my vision.

I have to show them what they want to see
Otherwise I'll fail others and myself.
I've let myself down, I don't want to be let go
I don't want to shame everyone else.

So I fake the smile, I hide the sobs
Come up with another useless plan.
I must be picture perfect, I have to know the girl
Who hides who I really am.