Closing Up

I can't stop this darkness from settling in
Wrapping itself around my heart
As though they were lovers
And squeezing a little too tightly
I've gotten tired of wearing this mask of who they think I am
But I'm scared of opening up
Because whenever I do
I can see them back away
As though I were something wretched
And my friends
I can tell they've gotten tired
Of hearing this depressive repetition
So I've stopped talking
And I'm cracking
But I won't let it show
Because I hate me
For being weak
And I know they will too
Because they want saving
Just like I do